Droooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooolsssss.
I want her hair, I want her wardrobe, I want everything that has got to do with her.
But I really want her hair though.
My hair was supposed to be like hers but it turned out so wrong. My hair took twice the amount of time to be properly dyed, even the hairstylist got impatient. The bleaching took twice the usual amount of time too! Macam cheebai.
I think my hair wants to stay black, so it's like, fighting back hahah
Whatever, there's still next time. I'll get my Gwen-ish hair soon.


It's already the third week of July. Flags and decorations in the neighbourhood are already out for National Day.
It makes me realise that I'm growing a year older.
Another period of realisation that makes me panic. That I haven't achieved anything significant in my life.

Truth is, I don't really know what I wanna achieve in life. It sounds sad, I know.
Like I've said before, I don't know what I want in the future. What I wanna be, what I wanna do for the rest of my life, what kind of person I wanna be, the whole bullshit.
The whole 'planning-for-the-future' thing scares the hell out of me.
At what stage do you consider yourself successful? When you're rich? I guess that's what's happening in Singapore.

I should really start thinking about this. First, I need to ask people what would they wanna achieve in life.
I would then get the idea of what it really means to have a goal in life. And then I'll set my own goals. But then again, I'll just get disappointed if I don't achieve the goal I've set.
It's a vicious cycle. It's sad.


I really need to stop posting depressing stuff. I need to start blogging in a happy mood.
But it's hard to achieve that aura nowadays.



I miss this period of time. I looked sick as hell, but I really do miss it.