allowed entry at 11:48 pm
I was sitting, waiting for a friend and I realised some stuff.
I realised how redundant a traffic light is. People just cross anyways.
I realised how funny the world can be. I forgot the humour that I encountered just now that made me smile and cheered up my miserable day.
I realised that I'm always the one waiting for people. I wonder why.
I realised that I haven't shaved my legs for 2 days already HAHA
And I realised what ginormous bullshitters people can be.
Words just don't mean a thing to some people anymore.
The simplicity of some words can move me.
However small those words may be.
The things I used to take seriously are becoming a joke to me now.
Just a bloody waste of my goddamn time.
I see no need for a mockery when you could've just told me that I'm wasting my time straight up.
I think I have seriously mega issues with myself.
My mind tends to wonder off when I'm sitting alone somewhere.
I think of the most ridiculously peculiar things anyone can ever think of.
I should never be left alone.
Unless you want me to go mentally insane.
You don't right?
RIGHT?! heh.
Speaking of mentally insane, I recently watched Girl, Interrupted.
A ridiculously long movie with no climaxes, action or sex scenes.
The only 'sex' scene they had was when Winona Ryder kissed Angelina Jolie.
It was just a peck on the lips but I bet that's enough for the hormones of guys run wild.
But the words they say got my mind all worked up.
Worth the 2 hours I stayed up just to finish that movie.
Oh now I remember the funny thingaling thing I had just now.
I was walking out of J8 and I saw a pile of mud/soil thingamagic in the middle of a traffic light.
It dropped out of a huge soil-carrying truck thing.
I held back my laughter cause no one found it amusing.
Well it was to me
lah heh
Then when I was walking near it, a handful of soil fell out the "butt" of the truck thing and I could hear it even with my ears plugged in.
It looked like shit.
Sounded and fell like1 too.
It went something like "CHEPIAK!"
hahahaha yeah lol
I laughed to myself right there and then.
That made my morning bright.
Weird, aye.
AAANNNYYWAAAYYYSSS,
Bottom line is, say what you mean and mean what you say.
Words affect people in a huge way.
EH OMG THAT RHYMED. HEH.At least, to me they do.
As they say in Literature, "the pen is mightier then the sword".
Now, do I sound like a 17 year old kid studying in ITE? =)
Evening out with the idiots was a
blast.
We talked about practically everything till the night.
Till I missed half an hour of
Rahsia Perkahwinan lah OMG.
I laughed like an uncivilised barbarian HEH
They never fail to perk up my days.
Eh Haiqal angry!
"EP! EP!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA omg
Inside joke XD
Idiot number 1.
And idiot number 2.
I looked ridiculously EW so I won't post up my picture with idiot number 2 XD
While I was typing out all this bull, I puked out everything I ate today.
I feel sick.
=/
allowed entry at 8:32 pm
I lost my lip rings today.
I was searching for it in the morning and I couldn't find them.
I got back home, seached my room upside down and inside out and I still couldn't find them.
So I called my dad and asked him whether he knows if my mum found them.
He was fucking helpful and can joke wimme some more.
And oh yeah, he knows I keep my piercing.
He just warned me not to swallow it hhaha
AND I STILL CAN'T FIND MY BLOODY NEW LIP RINGS! =(The point is.
My dad fucking rocks.
He's seen the world.
He knows what goes on outside.
He curses and swears infront of us all.
He makes the funniest criticisms about people, which makes him sound like a woman sometimes.
He burps and farts in public, which is fucking gross.
He makes the lamest jokes on Earth and laughs at it himself.
He laughs like there's no tomorrow.
He keeps his kids' secrets, and so do we.
We all keep secrets from my mum.
That's how awesome my dad is.
Now, the thing that's always on my mind is,
whatever happened to my mum?
fuckshitcrapdamnbloodyhell
allowed entry at 11:16 pm
I realised that I've been using my black pen eversince school started, which has been around 4 months.
I remember, back in secondary school, I would keep on buying black pens every other month.
Due to the many many Literature essays I had to write, the many many English essays, the gazillion Math questions I had to solve and the many many Chemistry, Physics and Biology notes I had to take down.
I MISS THOSE MOMENTS. Amazingly.
I don't know why I keep on thinking that there's school tomorrow.
And I don't know why I can't wait for S&W.
Suddenly I feel like my life has no goddamn meaning.
I was out today and I didn't even talk much.
A waste of my time. TSK.
I miss talking shit with Farah and Elyana.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY!
I wanna see you guys =D
I should have gone to the gig with Izzat.
Alfa must've been there also.
MEH NEH NEH LAH!
allowed entry at 12:31 am
EH I'M BROKE!
Texted Reezan to claim my 6 bucks back, but that goon didn't text me back.
I think he's finding ways to fork out the money.
I DON'T CARE.
I WANT MY MONEY!
XD
Webcamwhored. HAH.
I just realised that I look sick.
Like, sick sick.
O.o
And I didn't know I was being missed by so many people at the same time.
And and I need to hug so many people right now.
And I have to go puke now.
I love my
merepek kerepek cikopek MACHO
abang-abang matrep-to-be.
allowed entry at 10:06 pm
I abhor people who contradict themselves.
Period.
OMG I stared at the screen for 5 minutes with my half-closed eyes, not knowing what to write about.
Kay I shall talk about my NAPFA test then.
NO, it's NOT NAPHA or NAFA, you morons.
NAPFA stands for "National Physical Fitness Award."
Get it right, cause it was getting on my bloody nerves.
NAPHA means something else, like the "NAPHA Horse Improvement Program".
And NAFA is the "Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts" you dumb dumbs.
Just needed to get that off of my chest. HEH
So yeah, the
NAPFA test.
It started out rocky, with people getting pissed off and wanting to just walk out.
But a
nice and
concerned teacher whom I've never laid my sorry eyes upon during my school life, took us in.
After probably 7 months of not running, being a couch potato and worse still, eating like a pig, my body aches like mother fucking hell.
And I don't think I'm going to school tomorrow. HOHO.
I got position number 137 out of the 200 odd that turned up for the run.
BEFORE YOU START LAUGHING LIKE A HYENA,
lemme tell you that the girls ran together with the guys, which explains my pathetic position.
Bloody hell.
Told myself not to stop running, but my sorry ass body just HAD to disobey me.
I found myself stopping and walking for a couple of meters 5 times.
I was pissed off with myself
lah please.
LIKE %#*$^|'{;/<.:"\%^)$\%@(!_=+{
To think that I was a runner when I was younger.
GOD DAMMIT.
I'm boring you, aren't I?
Then go away
lah bodoh XD
Apparently someone said that he likes reading my posts, cause my life is "happening".
Like, O.o
I couldn't agree more.
LOL kidding.
I don't write the shit that happens pre, prior to, post and during those moments.
Most are kept locked up and safe inside my mind.
OMG Spongebob's scene with Patrick just flashed across my mind.
The episode where Spongebob keeps on winning trophies and Patrick wanted to be like Spongebob, and then Patrick copied every single one of Spongebob's movements, and then Spongebob thought "at least I'm safe inside my mind", and then Patrick also thought "at least I'm safe inside my mind.
And oh my god, I just wasted 10 seconds of your life making you read that shit I just typed out.
I'm gonna go study for the TPS mock test now.
So long, bloody fool.
OHOHO
I have no idea why I just called you that.
Sorry. HAH
THIS PICTURE IS CANDID.
Don't run your mouth and get me pissed off, please.
allowed entry at 9:46 pm
I miss Nabila.
I miss Daya.
I miss Yany.
I miss Nas.
I miss Shazni.
I miss Nash.
Don’t lie and say that it’s ohkay.
It’s all right if there’s nothing more to say.
So I’m running away, I’m leaving this place.
Yeah I’m running away.
Don’t tell me I’m the one to blame.
It’s too late for you to make me stay.
No I won’t stay.
Faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
Farther than you can find me.
I’m leaving today.
And I, I’ll never let you find me.
I’m leaving you behind with the past, no I won’t look back.
I wanna hear your reasons.
I wanna hear you tell me why I should stay.
Try to understand me.
Try to understand what I say, when I say I can’t stay.
I’m moving on from this place.
I’m leaving and I won’t wait.
I’m running away.
I wanna run away and live under Nabila's bed.
She'll take care of me better than anyone else can.
I need you.
If I die, I'll leave you a quarter of what I have.
Which is not much.
Considering how much you mean to me.
For all the times you've listened to me,
For all the times you've put up with the shit I put you through,
I wanna say thanks.
I'm gonna go die now.
allowed entry at 10:05 pm
And I just realised that my bloggeh's cursor has pink hearts around them.
I went "WHAT THE FUCK!?" when I saw the cursor with the school's PC.
I wonder why my lappy doesn't show stuff like that.
I think my lappy's a guy.
HAHA kay no link.
I SAW NINI KU AT BUGIS JUST NOW!
That baldy.
I swear, if I wasn't with my mum, I would've given him a huuuuuuge hug.
He said he missed meeeeeeeeee!
Honoured bebeh, honoured.
OHOHO
Shaznininininini ku, I miss you too eh.
I think I'm deprived.
I'm deprived of something, but I have no idea what it is.
I think I'm deprived from talking shit with Daya.
And also Nas.
Plus Yaany.
In addition, Nabila.
And everyone else I haven't talked to in a gazillion years.
Kay maybe I'm not deprived from talking shit with Nas.
Cause that goon just made me laugh like a hyena in front of my PC.
Nas: KETEPI LA.
____: Tepi maner?
Nas: TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT!
KAY inside joke.
You don't need to know cause you'll just go "HAAAAAAH!?"
You don't know Nas.
I love Nas.
I love my apek.
You shut up.
HAHAHA -.-"
God. I told you I'm deprived.
Sometimes I get the feeling that you don't mean what you say.
If you don't, then don't bother.
If you do, say it again and mean it.
Thanks.
OH NO.
Ghost Whisperer!
KAY THANKS FOR READING BEBEH.
Stupidest post ever.
Seriously.
If this post makes any sense to you, raise your hands till you see my cats flying.
HAHAHA -.-
Kay bye.
allowed entry at 10:22 pm
Have you ever had those moments in a crowded train where you wanna laugh out loud alone when you think about those stupidly funny moments you had with your friends?
Have you ever had those moments in a crowded train where when you're listening to a song that reminds you so much of the past that you'd start to cry alone?
Anyone?
No?
Now I know I'm insane.
Twinnie says I've gained weight.
Yeah, I do have a twin.
A twin whom I haven't seen since forever.
We played our own version of "The Twin Telepathy Test" and we failed.
That was the ONLY time where we had different things running through our minds.
Ohkay fine, I don't have a twin.
Das is a year older and is Chinese.
But we practically share the same minds, attitudes and character.
We're like siblings from another mother.
So yeah.
He said I gained weight.
How come Nabila never says anything? hah.
I just realised that my dad goes "HEHEHE!!" when he's playing with my cats.
allowed entry at 10:39 pm
Discrimination.
Why does it have to happen every goddamn day?
I'm sick of it.
People should get a kick to their heads and a brainwashing session to stop discrimination.
Well, not stop.
Just tone it down a tad bit.
Not one human can say that they don't discriminate.
Cause then, they're lying.
And whatever happened to good mannerism?
Whatever happened to the simplicity of saying "excuse me" or "sorry"?
You don't have to bang your ginormous foot on the escalator with a pissed off face that deserves a slap, to grab my attention to move right?
Plus, I was on the left side of the escalator.
So why the hell are you getting pissed off at me for?
Cuntface.
I have no freaking idea why I'm born with such a high EQ.
I curse and swear a lot, but that doesn't mean I don't practice good mannerism, as ironic as that sounds.
I received a text from my brother, saying "If you've received a call saying that it's checking your mobile line and wants you to press "09", "90" or any other number, end the call immediately without pressing any number. A fraud company using a device to access your SIM card and make calls at your expense. This information has been confirmed by both Motorola and Nokia. You can also check this in the CNN web."
So don't say I didn't warn you.
Dammit.
I have 2 ulcers in my mouth.
They huuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrtttt!
I miss my hair.
But I miss Daya more.
BAAAAAAAAAAAH!
allowed entry at 12:21 am
Ah. Eh. Oh.
Do I take nice pictures or DO I TAKE NICE PICTURES? X)
V^_^
My camera was filled with Nabila's photos.
Along with the others.
Typical CAMWHORES.
They went off camwhoring while I got bitten on the ass 85792875 times by small red ants.
They should get burned.
Mother fuckers.
The red ants, I mean.
I never got to thank Jon for the Shephard's Pie.
So, THANKS JONNY BOY! =D
You didn't even say "bye" when you left =(
But THAAAAAAAANKS Nabila, Yany, Meera, Jon, Haiqal, Khai, Hatim and Reezan for the super tiny picnic.
haha =D
Uh, I'm too sleepy to function right now.
Dammit. I have school later on.
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG.
allowed entry at 2:59 pm
1. last beverage: plain ice cold water. mmmmm.
2. last phone call: Nabila
3. last cd played: i. dont. remember.
4. last time you cried: =) 05082007, 12 midnight.
5. last text message to: Haiqal
SIX HAVE YOU EVERS.
1. dated someone twice? uuh yeah
2. been cheated on? yeahuh. idiot.
3. kissed someone & regretted it? YEAHUH
4. lost someone special: yeap =(
5. been depressed? yeah
6. been drunk and threw up? HAHAHAH yeah. that was fucken retarded. i threw up at the curb entering my neighbourhood. WANNA SEE IT? lol
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS.
1. black
2. red
3. white
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU.
1. Made a new friend?
yeahuh. i make new friends every weekend, cool enough.
2. Laughed until you cried?
YES
4. Met someone who changed your life?
this month, nope.
5. Found out who is your true friend?
i figured that out a long time ago.
6. Is there something you want to tell someone?
yeah, but i hope they know what i was referring to so i don't need to spell it out for them.
7. How many kids do you want to have?
this question reminds me of Alfie. she has always wanted a football team of kids. but idk about me.
8. Do you have any pets?
2 kitties. i always have the habit of saying 3 -.-
9. Do you wanna change your name?
uuuuhh, idk
10. What did you do yesterday?
school at 8. home at 1. out at 4. home at 12. =)
11. Last time You had pizza?
class bonding session, uh 03082007
12. What time did you wake up today?
1o?
13. What were you doing at 10:30 p.m?
sitting at esplanade.
14. Name something you CANNOT wait for?
=D i know, you dont know. nyahaha!
15. Last time you saw your father?
IN THE MORN, JUST NOW! <33
16. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
none i could think of right now..
17. What are you listening to right now?
rihanna going "ella, ella, eh eh eh"
18. Have you ever talked to Tom from myspace?
nope.
19. Who's getting on your nerves right now?
9746529756945625 people.
20. Most visited webpage?
my bloggeh, myspace and wikipedia. HAHA
21. Coke or Pepsi?
pepsi!
22. Have you seen anyone naked?
lol who hasnt?
I'M BORED.
IT'S ONLY 3!
I WANNA GO OUT NOW!
allowed entry at 1:00 am
Shisha my ass.
Though things didn't turn out as planned, I had fun while the moment lasted.
Laughter, bitchings and gossips with Farahrahrahrah while Khai smoked.
Sitting by the road side, mind you.
We looked like homeless kids.
A nice scene to see.
I never thought I could enjoy my time out with Hatim and Reezan without Haiqal around.
I could easily talk to them, amazingly.
MEH, Khai, Hatim.
And Khai, your face, last warning eh.
STOP IT SIAK.
I know you look at the pictures in my bloggeh eh.
haha =P
MET NAS AT ESPLANADE!
Super dee duper happy.
The pouting of the lips was totally unplanned. We have telepathy. I swear. <33
Oh yeah.
I just realised that this is the first time I posted a picture of me with my new hairstyle.
Hoho.
Shut the hell up, I don't look like a guy.
Happy National Day.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
Ohkay thanks bye.
allowed entry at 6:53 pm
Ralph [pointing to Lisa]: I can't believe I used to go out with you!
HHAHAHAHAH!
Dang it.
I love comedy.
Imagine a world without laughter.
O.o
Ohkay, that gave me the creeps.
I miss my dad.
When. Is. He. Coming. HOME?!
I wanna watch home movies with him again.
I wanna watch teevee and laugh at nonsensical stuff with him again.
I wanna get irritated with his freakishly loud laughter again.
But I don't wanna do his paperwork and presentations for him anymore =D
He got an allowance of 350 bucks cause of me!
They said that he was doing a good job and that he should keep it up.
And why is that?
Cause I did his paperwork and presentations.
Daaaaaaaaaamn.
Am I a good worker or am I a good worker? X)
I wanna tell my parents something.
But...
WHY MUST THERE ALWAYS BE A "BUT"?!
Pssht.
allowed entry at 8:27 pm
Me: So what did you do today?
Me: Oh, I watched teevee the whole day while my family fought.
Me: Nice.
Me: Uh huuh.
Yeap.
5th August 2007 was fucking awesome.
Oh, it was my birthday?
I forgot.
Nonetheless,
thanks to everyone who sent in texts, PMed me on msn, posted posts on your blogs, commented me on myspace, called me up and wished me upfront.
Though this weekend is the worst one I've had in years, you people made me smile.
The words that touched my heart the most was Yany's.
I swear to god, I was crying harder then anyone has seen me cry before.
I don't feel like talking.
I don't feel like doing anything.
Worst. Weekend. Ever.
Plus, my whole body aches and blood was oozing out of my forearm.
Thanks to moshing.
allowed entry at 11:59 pm
I don't feel good.
I don't feel like celebrating.
I don't feel like myself.
I'm not FARRR!Pass me bottles and bottles of alcohol and let me drown myself in them.
Make me forget about the world and I'll thank you for it.
Pass me thousands and thousands of bucks and let me drown myself in them.
Make me shop till I drop and I'll thank you for it.
Pass me my life back and I'll love you.
I'll love you a lot for it.
allowed entry at 7:48 pm
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BANG BANG TOOT TOOT HONK HONK
Never underestimate the importance of listening.
Neither can you forget about other people's feelings.
Watch what you say and what you do.
Cause you might end up losing that person in a split second.
No, not death.
Just disappearance.
I've been disappearing out of people's lives quite often nowadays.
Cause I got bored.
I know I sound like a bitch.
But I can't help it.
Assurance.That's all I want.
That's all I need.
I just realised that I'm becoming more of a boring person by the hour.
Probably cause I've been deprived from that entertainment box people call television.
Watched my all-time-favourite That 70's Show and Fez sure knows how to make me laugh like a hyena.
Hyde: Geez. That was harsh.
Fez: Yeah. It must've been my Jamaican fire.
Hyde: So you're from Jamaica?
Fez: No, Jamaican Fire, my new cologne.
AHAHAHA!
If you didn't get it, you're dumb.
Or maybe you should simply watch That 70's Show.
It's my own form of therapy.
X)
So I logged in into my myspace,
And guess what people asked me?
"So, you going to BayBeats?"
Go figure.
Ooohh. 1st
August.
