Summary of the day.
Reezan and I have telepathy.
Public is now pronounced as 'pubric', as created by Haiqal.
Haiqal and Reezan are now gay partners.
I loooooooooooooooooooooooove l♥ve l♥ve my friends.
The friggin twin.
The almost same outfit with the almost same face.
Brr.
Ahmad, I'm sooooooooo sorry I couldn't send you off.
I hope you're gonna have fun over there.
you're gonna have fun over there.
So don't forget me who's suffering from boredom in Singapore.
allowed entry at 2:59 am
"At the end of the day, I think we really stand alone. The feet we stand on are absolutely ours."
Touche to that, Alfie.
But then again, don't be so hard on yourself or your family. In this case, him.
Cause I've just come to realise that without family, we're nothing.
Not even friends can fill up the hole in our heart like they do.
I know I don't feel the way you feel.
I just want you to have the feeling that you're never alone.
And no matter how much we think we really stand on our own, we can barely survive a week without them. Well, most of us at least.
Now I feel suckyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. haaha
And what happened to our supposed "2 months meet ups" HUH?!
You pig. haahahaha ♥
I like blogs like Alfie's.
Ones that give a new perspective on things.
Then the ones that make me laugh like a mad pig infront of my lappy.
And then there's the stupidly ridiculous, childish and mundane ones hahaah
Nabila, you know, I know. HAHA
You bitch =P
I feel like talking crap.
But I don't know what crap to talk about.
Plus I can't fucking get to sleep.
And I'm so pissed off that I have to go down to bloody Bishan to hand the bloody ass proposal in.
Sodding bullocks.
I've been reading too many British books and watching too many British movies.
Brr.
And if you notice, I have this thing where I don't say 'with' as 'wif', but as a 'with'.
And 'that' as 'that' and not 'dat'.
Don't get it? Ask my boyfriend lol
I pity him sometimes. Not sometimes, most of the time.
Bear with me as I talk about him cause I miss him like wooooooooooooooooooooo.
Plus it's fucking rare to see me write about Mr. Apollo Star, right.
People ask who the hell Apollo Star, the one who's always tagging my board is, and I go "-.- dude, that's my boyfriend, you dingdong"
Imagine not seeing your fucking boyfriend for a fucking year.
Nabey cheebai sibei lanjiao.
It's only been four fucking months which felt like forty fucking years and I'm on the verge of killing myself and rotting my corpse on my comfy bed but I won't wanna die just yet.
And I really don't get people who hasn't seen their fucking partner for like a mere ONE day and goes around saying "fuck, I miss him/her."
Piss off and take this with you _|_
So anyways, I pity him cause I'm one irritating idiot haha
Picking on things that annoy me and taking it out on him.
I feel like such a bitch lol
Throwing fries at your face in Burger King.
Accidentally putting my cigarette bud on your forearm. I still feel bad =/ But it technically wasn't my fault cause you turned and moved your arm, ohkay! =D
Scratching your arm whenever I get the chance to.
Giving you the elbow on bus rides haha
Making fun of you for your little slip ups.
Cursing at each other every damn day for fun, calling each other fucker, cheebai, konek, idiot, asshole, moron, dickhead, kanina, bodoh. You name it, we've said it. haha
I get irritated with myself whenever I'm not in the mood and I'll end up ignoring you. Bleargh.
*Cue the mushy part lol*I can go on and on about how much of a bloody annoying bugger I am, but you know I fucking love you.
I can go on and on about how much fun we have, but my readers would be rolling their eyes till their eye sockets sore. Not that I care, though hahah
And it would just hurt to know that you're not fucking here.
Sucks =(
I can't wait for the remaining
ten months to fucking fly by cause I've been picturing the day that you'll finally be back in stupid Singapore.
I fucking miss you =(
HAHA we look weird.
DAMMIT my eyes are still not tired.
What's a girl gotta do to get some sleep around here?!
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
allowed entry at 8:17 pm
I was so bored, I read everyone's blog.
I was very bored, so I read everyone's blog twice.
I was freaking bored, so I changed my blog skin.
I was so freaking bored, I changed my boyfriend's blog skin too.
I was mother freaking bored, so I watched cats meowing in YouTube.
And I'm still bored.
I've been begging my mum to get me a kitten.
At least I'll have something to do this month.
And someone to keep me away from being bored all the time.
I wanna name my kitten "babi".
So I'll get to say "OI BABI!", "kau makan macam babi ah, babi", "babiiiii!!!! where are you!?", "come babi, come".
hahahahahaha that would be fucken fun, going "babi babi babi" all day long.
When people ask what my cat's name is, I'll go "babi".
HAHA
I'm still bored. God dammit.
allowed entry at 11:46 pm
Singapore should start a 24/7 train service.
I'm sick of trying to catch the last train home.
It sucks to wave a cab at midnight cause of the bleeding extra charge.
And bus rides are soooooooooo freaking long and draggy. Good God.
I should start a petition stating how important and essential it is to have a 24hour train service in Singapore, get 200 signatures and viola, 24hour train service. Heaven.
But then again, naaaaaaaaaaaah.
Have you ever wondered what "doing nothing" means?
"Nothing" is always "something".
When you're sitting down and staring into space, you're actually doing something.
Even when you're lying on your bed and closing your eyes, you're still doing something.
So when is "nothing" ever really a "nothing"?
Is there such a thing as "nothing"?
I really don't know where I'm going with this but I really wanna know if there's really a "doing nothing".
Tell me I'm nowhere near weird.
It just sank into me that I've ended my first year.
And I'm starting my second year in a month's time.
Woo-bloody-hoo!
Make that a woo-
fucking-hoo.
Whoopeedoo.
Yeay yeay.
Hoorah.
With the new term reopening in a month's time, I need a new thumbdrive.
Seriously, FUCK the school's laptop.
SCREW them for the FUCKING Trojan in my FUCKING thumbdrive.
Do you know how close I got to losing all the information for my proposals and shit?
Shut up. I'm still not over it.
"Personal life" should be, would be and will always be kept personal.
That's why it's called a
personal life. God.
And I've been rolling my eyes too much.
My eye sockets are sore. wahuhuhu
Cause wearing shades at night is cool.
allowed entry at 3:30 pm
I was at Kandang Kerbau Hospital just now, and I noticed one thing.
Mothers.
Mothers who have kids and a maid.
One particular family I observed consisted of a grandma, a mum, 2 sons aged 5 and below and a maid.
The grandma and mum were sitting 2 seats apart.
Grandma was staring into space.
Mum was busy with her phone. She won't take her eyes off of her goddamn phone even if Mas Selamat was saying "Hi!" to her.
Her sons were a freaking hassle and the maid had to take care of the brats running around the bloody hospital and also look after all of their belongings.
Which comes to my point.
Why have kids when you're hiring a maid to take care of them for you, 24/7?
Where's the sense of pride of you being a mum?
Do you even deserve to be called a mum?
Dammit.
Don't produce just so you could overpopulate the Earth, man.
On another note,
I saw so many kids whom I just wanted to kidnap and run away with.
And by kids, I meant baby boys.
I don't like baby girls. So annoying.
God bless my baby girl if they come out of me.
I won't entertain them as much as I'll entertain my baby boy. haahaha
I don't know what to talk about already.
Kay bye.
Oh.
iwalaf,cmhahtd.
Get well soon ♥
Ohkay bye.
allowed entry at 10:41 pm
I have sooooooooooooooooo many stuff to whine about.
I feel like going on a homicide spree and create a Shocker On Shock Street.
My brain is probably going to explode soon.
But I can't seem to phrase my thoughts into words.
Everything's jumbled up and I'm going a little nuts right now.
I need to hangout with my usual mates and just wish that time would stop.
Quite contradicting, cause I've been wanting time to move faster.
God, please fast forward to January 2009.
As I was saying, I need to hangout with my usual mates again cause I've been putting my life to a halt cause of school.
Fuck school and all it's glory.
Education and qualifications are overrated. Get it into your head, you little fucks.
But that's a whole other story.
My social life is at the down low.
My phone hasn't been ringing for the past few days.
The person whom I still talk to now is the sole Mr. Reezan.
Friends and also Reezan have been saying I've gone missing and are begging me to move my big fat Asian ass.
Plus I missed shisha session. A real big fuck up.
Now all I need is them.
Unwind me, you fucks!
I'll get my ass moving to call you fucks up to hangout.
I wanna go catch movies.
I wanna lepak.
I wanna feel alive again.
I feel so deaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.
But we'll have to wait till my problems have settled.
Fuck this shit, man.
($&*&$*&^$@>?#|{{$*)&)$)#!+=
Just cause I keep quiet doesn't mean I'm not thinking.
I'm not like you fucks who run your mouth but nothing sets you thinking.
Ah zip it. Lock it. Screw it. Fuck it.
allowed entry at 6:36 pm
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
allowed entry at 6:50 pm
I knew all along that I'm standing on my own.
But this time, it really sank in.
No one's around to push me.
No one's around as a support.
No one's around to be my pillar of strength.
People come and go, it's expected, and it really stinks.
It makes me sound very dependent, but hey, I'm still human.
I'm gonna be as silent as a church mouse from now on.
I'll be on hiatus till the day I feel like coming back.
