I get jealous.
I get jealous when I see couples walking around with smiles on their faces while holding each other's hands.
I miss walking around and hanging out with you.
I envy.
I envy people who have their bfs next to them.
I miss being next to you.
I get green-eyed.
I get green-eyed when I see people laughing out loud with their bfs.
I miss laughing out loud with you.

Whenever I turn on MTV and Will.I.Am's video for "I Got It From My Mama" comes on, I'll stare into space.
That song reminds me of you.
You'll always sing that irritating song.
You'll sing it with lyrics you made up yourself and then turn to me and ask, "what's the lyrics uh?".
Then that song will remind me of "My Humps".
Cause you'll sing anything and everything with the same tune.
Then when the Backstreet Boys come on, I'll think of you again.
Cause you were "their number 1 fan".
They have a new single by the way.
They suck. And I know why. "Cause you're not supporting them anymore."


I miss hanging out with you.
I miss talking to you on the phone.
I miss laughing out loud alone in public to your funny texts.
I miss being immature around you.
I miss hearing you bitch like a girl.
I miss eating McFlurrys with you.
I miss complaining to you about every little thing.
I miss waiting for the bus with you.
I miss getting caught in silly situations with you.
I miss laughing at you and your bloopers.
I miss seeing your embarassed face when you had a blooper.
I miss seeing your blur face followed by a "whaaaaat?!" when I give you a -.- face.
I miss you.
I miss every single thing about you.


I used to sing,
"Oh, I'm ready for it.
C'mon bring it.
So kiss me goodbye.
Honey, I'm gonna make it out alive."

I definitely will.
I fucking miss you.
It sucks so bad.
I remember seeing your face when you sent me home 2 days before you had to leave.
I didn't tell you but it killed me to see tears clogging up your eyes.
Yeap, I saw.
Going up the staircase to my house that day was the hardest thing I had to do.
At the airport, I kept on swallowing my tears.
I didn't want you leaving with you seeing me cry.
Only Reezan knows how hard I cried in the cab after that.
Only ELMO knows how hard I cried before I went to sleep.
And everytime my mum asks or talks about you, my heart sinks.
Cause I miss you so bad.


Don't blame yourself, cause it's not your fault you had to leave for school.
Don't ever say you're a sucky bf.
Cause you're the best.
12 more months, honey.
12 more months.




I.
Love.
You.
To.
The.
Fucking.
Core.

♥♥♥