I get scared whenever I wake up nowadays.
I've been experiencing constant déjà vus when I wake up.
I open my eyes, reach out to my phone, check the time and it says "11:50AM".
It's been that way for 5 days already.

I'm also scared to sleep.
Cause mainly, I can't.
It takes me hours to get to sleep.
Toss, turn, toss and turn.
Nabey.
And when I do get to sleep, I'll wake up every goddamn hour of the night.
Cheebai.
And if I hear anything moving around in my house, I'll wake up.
Which can be scary. I don't wanna see ghosts =(
I want sleeping pills.
No, wait.
I need sleeping pills.


Oh Oh.
I woke up just now and felt hungry.
My parents left me alone at home with no fucking food and no fucking money so I made myself some milk tea.
Or at least attempted to make myself some milk tea.
Feeling contented with what I saw, I drank it.
And I swear to god, no one, no one should ever taste or eat what I make with my bare hands.
It tasted like baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. hahahaha
I laughed at myself like a moron.
But but everyone should taste my freaking brownies.
huahuahua.

Note.
What's the point of reflecting what you did at the end of every year?
You'll only beat yourself up for making the wrong decisions.
Or cry cause something bad happened to you in that one year.
What's the point of having new year resolutions?
You set goals for yourself. Then you'll beat yourself up again if you don't reach them in the end.
Note to self: Never set goals. That way, you'll never be disappointed. Ever.




Merry Christmas.
AND A FUCKING HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I still don't know what to do on New Year's Eve.
Enlighten me.
I have plans! YEAY!
Ahmad is a party starter ♥